growing up, we were never close.
growing up, I was always - ALWAYS afraid of you.

you were like that scary monster,
like the German leader,
the kids eater.

you were my money maker,
my main source of income,
you pushed me, forced me to study,
to get good results, get a scholarship.

you said stuff,
that hurts.

now you're getting older,
getting less strict, getting sicker,
you smiled more, laughed more,
happier.

all those stuff you said before,
only now does it make sense,
and I am glad it did.

look at me now,
your twenty year old daughter,
I hope I made you proud all these time,
cause that is how I feel about you.

I am never a daddy's girl, I know I never will.

but I want you to know, if I can choose to be anyone's daughter,
I'LL PICK YOU.

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

Have you heard about the power of Facebook?

It can stir your feeling, triggers emotions, remind you of incidents and change your mood swings. Funny eh?

But it is true.

Comments on walls got you thinking, changed the way you think of someone, of others. Photo albums update you with others' pastimes, their laughter, their giggles. Delighted if you're in, envied if you're not. Shout outs tell you what was on their minds, sometimes touching, mostly annoying. Words when not arranged properly can be understood, mislead to something else, gives a totally different meaning. Red notifications which could not be ignored, appearing every 10seconds, time consuming, very distracting.

The who, when, what, where, how.

Worse impacts if you are a stalker.

Be prepared for all these dramas when you click on that blue bookmark tab. Don't tell me I didn't warn you.

Or else, you will end up like me - browsing through my sib's holiday photos, wishing hard I was there sharing the fun.Sadness, jealousy, rage were felt of a sudden. and there goes my mood for revision :(



haaa sapa suruh check facebook time tengah revision... padan muka..

LOL. The only reason I am doing this is because my brain drained out of original entries PLUS I think this is friggin hilarious.

(as tagged by izzy.)

This survey is only for those who are SINGLE.
Answer the questions honestly and tag seven SINGLE FRIENDS.

1. Are you single?
+ not a single Mom for sure.

2. How long have you been single?
+ I don't keep track of anything besides birthdays.

3. How many exes do you have?
+ More than you do.

4. Whose fault when you guys broke up?
+ None of your business.

5. If your ex want to get together again, what will your answer be?
+ Ex what??

6. Are you seeing anybody now?
+ I see everybody everyday. oh, and extra two pandas.

7. What are 3 qualities you want to find most in your future gf/bf?
+ what if I don't want one? LOL. smiley face, tall (must must must!), good at kicking ass ball.

8. What turns you on and off for a girl/guy?
+ talks about their ex-es. HUGE turn off.

9. What will be your comment on your past relationship and future?
+ set your priorities right. family, studies and friends come first NO MATTER WHAT.

10. What will you say to your future gf/bf?
+ tell your mom I said hi :)

Don't you think that this is silly? Goodnight stranger.

i feel fucked up. shit.

I learned from a friend that a guy I know is keeping me as an 'option'. Tell me what should I feel about that.

xx.

I just had my longest phone conversation last night with my proven loyal stalker - which of course, ended up with me breaking my bedtime (again) and postponing my investment assignment. But I still think there is a lot to be said. Haha.

I seriously couldn't wait to submit all assignments and for my buah hati to come to Brisbane!!

I just started four indented lines with 'I'.

Eh, did I tell you that the reason why I moved back to xanga at the first place? Seems like this one specific person whom I was trying to run from found me here. I can't be bothered privatizing my posts but I somehow don't feel comfortable knowing you're following my every mood swing. Nora should be my one and only stalker. But that will be another story.

I noticed that I am rambling here. Must get back to work. Chow.