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Kiss Me Now That I'm Older.

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 12:53:45 GMT

Being twenty one feels like driving at night in an empty freeway, with Dad sitting next to you checking your speed meter. You are in control yet being controlled.

it feels like listening to your favourite song when you were with your first real boyfriend and you could not remember a single word. You've moved on.

it feels like having fun and losing yourself but once in a while you need a knock on the head to remind you who you really are. You grew up.

and this is me writing twenty one days being twenty one.

Hideously Pretty.

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 08:46:16 GMT

Does she talk about politics
and all that stuff that used to make me sick
does she smoke cigars and stay up late
oh she's so great.

Does she tell you what you want to hear?
and I bet she could grow a beard
I feel better thinking you were a queer

The jokes on me
I feel jealous and I feel mean
she's so nice that it makes up for her face

Oh I bet you wish you had a blind fold, baby.

Each girl must have passed this period in life. I guess I must have overgrown it :P

Congratulation to a girl, far, far from being hideous - AzaBaizura Morni.

Let's do it again next year, together.

Extract Me From My Plastic Fantasy.

Tue, 22 Dec 2009 11:26:06 GMT

She is now gone, without any warning. My heart stopped beating. I keep on convincing myself this is no truth. Everything keeps on replaying and replaying in my head, like a jammed videotape unable to be played properly. My heart then beats faster. Faster and faster and faster that it feels like it is going to burst out of my chest.

and then it stopped again.

I cried. and I woke up soaked in my pillow.

Bloody nightmare.

Bloody bloody nightmare. Nauzubillahiminzalik.

No stripping, darl.

Sun, 20 Dec 2009 16:06:56 GMT

Okay, this is annoying.

I don't get people who is comfortable with exposing their emotions and thoughts on the net. and worse, mentioning names when that person is your friend, on Facebook. Is that somewhat a kind of new trend that I am not aware of? If it is, then I am happy to not being a part of it.

Seriously people, use your brain.

But then again, these people could be such entertainers, no? Who am I to complain. ;)

xoxo.

He's awesome, possum.

Fri, 18 Dec 2009 05:41:45 GMT

I have a new boyfriend.

It has been two blessed days now. Mr Elmo was asleep when it happened. He told me that Mr boyfriend was no good but I think he was just jealous.

Mr Boyfriend goes anywhere with me now. It used to be only me and Mr Elmo but now we are a threesome. I really hope Mr Elmo is okay with this.

But I guess I still prefer Mr Elmo because he woke me up to go to work instead when I expected Mr Boyfriend to do it.

So dont worry Mr Elmo, you're my number one - always been, always will.

Oh, monyetku.

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 09:27:55 GMT

"Mak kamek pesan carik orang Sarawak,"

I love holidays, skype and Facebook <3 and you too, gemok.

Happy birthday to Shafiah and a belated one to Wani.

xoxo

Woolworths Lacking of Trolleys.

Sun, 13 Dec 2009 09:01:14 GMT

We did grocery shopping today and I miss home. I miss picking unnecessary stuff along the aisles and stuffing them in the trolley just because. I miss grabbing lots of junk food and trying new fattening product and rushing to place them at the counter before the cashier finished scanning all the items. and that is where the best part is - Dad pays for everything.

(insert evil laugh)

Plums here are not as sweet though as juicy as those at home. But I guess I could not complain since we still have Ayam Brand here. and Australian mangoes are yummy yummy super yummy :)

Okay, this is really random. (but I suddenly miss starfruit)

Flashing Back.

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 16:03:44 GMT

and so in a flash they left
leaving without a trace
what is left is an empty space
of which she could not bear to face

Until the end of time.

Mon, 07 Dec 2009 11:56:35 GMT

Today is my parents' 23rd anniversary and also my family's last day in Brisbane. Mom and Dad decided to have a twosome moment and sent us off to the cinema.

The movie was good, the time spent was splendid, the people were awesome.

I had a great day :)

My Heart Will Go On.

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 12:52:12 GMT

Never thought that a movie I first watched when I was nine years old could still be so fresh in my memory. How not crushing over Leonardo at that time was an offense. Oh and how powerful that four-word-phrase could be.

Now it's little sister's turn to watch it, but this time, the unrated version.

Any-hows my existence was mentioned for the first time in brother's blog. Wuhuu. Something I should be proud about since the only girl he talked about besides Maria Sharapova, Taylor Swift and Zoeey Deschanel is his girlfriend.

You jump, I jump. You screwed your phone, I screwed mine. xoxo.

"He saved me - in all the ways a person could be saved."